I am sitting here watching Tosh.O, eating chocolate ice cream and reading shape magazine...yes, I have stooped to a whole new level of pathetic!!! I am having a miserable day. I am exhausted for one. My sleep has been awful lately. I got cramps in my legs one night, our fight had kept me up much later than normal and sleeping with my legs elevated with a wedge is keeping me from sleeping me comfortably on my side.
I can not wait to finally be cleared from this hyper stimulation either. I wouldn't be surprised if that in itself contributed to my lack of sleep and sudden depression. Like I said, having to sleep on a wedge well, sucks. I am tired of not being able to do anything with impact or work out because of the risks and complications that could cone from it and the swelling is quite annoying as well.
So to get to the point of this vent fest...I feel that I have been pretty good lately. I've been strong, positive and hopeful...until today. I'm sure your thinking "funny, she always says that". I do always vent on here and talking about my frustrations but that's because this is where I get my frustrations out and I don't feel a need to blog about all of my good moments. I don't necessarily need to vent when things are good.
Maybe my crazy is kicking in because I know I should be starting my period any day now. Funny enough it was a 3 day weekend I was in this situation last time. I have been looking forward to the next cycle and hopefully having luck the next time around but right now I'm not feeling that great about it. Im scared. I'm feel like its never going to happen for us. It's been 7 months of being in infertility and my spirits are low.
I know patience is a virtue and I should just relax and wait it out but its hard when you see people getting everything you have hoped, dreamed and planned for and they are in no place to be having a child and didn't plan it in any way. It gets discouraging once in a while...
I can not wait to finally be cleared from this hyper stimulation either. I wouldn't be surprised if that in itself contributed to my lack of sleep and sudden depression. Like I said, having to sleep on a wedge well, sucks. I am tired of not being able to do anything with impact or work out because of the risks and complications that could cone from it and the swelling is quite annoying as well.
So to get to the point of this vent fest...I feel that I have been pretty good lately. I've been strong, positive and hopeful...until today. I'm sure your thinking "funny, she always says that". I do always vent on here and talking about my frustrations but that's because this is where I get my frustrations out and I don't feel a need to blog about all of my good moments. I don't necessarily need to vent when things are good.
Maybe my crazy is kicking in because I know I should be starting my period any day now. Funny enough it was a 3 day weekend I was in this situation last time. I have been looking forward to the next cycle and hopefully having luck the next time around but right now I'm not feeling that great about it. Im scared. I'm feel like its never going to happen for us. It's been 7 months of being in infertility and my spirits are low.
I know patience is a virtue and I should just relax and wait it out but its hard when you see people getting everything you have hoped, dreamed and planned for and they are in no place to be having a child and didn't plan it in any way. It gets discouraging once in a while...
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