In the meantime I have been taking progesterone suppositories. These aren't your traditional suppositories no...you put these in your front privates instead of the back privates. I will continue these every night unless I start my period. If I start my period then I stop the progesterone. If I make it all the way to the 31st and haven't started my period then I take a test. If the test is positive I continue the progesterone for the first 12 weeks of my pregnancy and of course jump for joy and probably cry. If I test and the results are negative I will stop the progesterone, call the Dr. and wait for my period to start and of course I will probably still cry...well thats more like a guarantee.
The first few days were the hardest. All I did was think about it, not that its any different now. I try not to dwell on it but its obviously always in the back of my mind. Right now we have 6 days left and it feels like an eternity. I am mentally preparing myself for more shots, my period and for a negative pregnancy test. Since there was only one egg there is only a 6% chance with this round of IUI so I need to be realistic.
All of this has been so hard on us, as you can imagine. It's taken a toll on me mentally and physically. Its affects you as an individual and as a couple. It has tested our strengths and has also caused us incredible heartache all while testing our character but I have to remember why we are even in this place right now. I met the man of my dreams, he made me the happiest woman on earth, we got our life is at a point where we feel that we are secure enough to bring a baby into this world. Right now, Dave and I have what many people dream for. I have to keep that in mind, always remember that and try to see the positive...
fingers crossed!!!
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